Thursday, July 31, 2008
Dear Friend,
I'd probably never say this to your face, so the only way you'd know this is if you're reading this from my blog right now.
You have changed a lot.
You're very different. You're saying very different things you never would have said in the past. Your behaving in a way you never would have in the past. Your actions are different. Everything is different about you. Come to think of it, you're almost doing everything you would have criticised me for a year ago.
Everyone changes. I won't deny I have changed a fair bit also. For starters, I've become vainer, and more vulgar. Instead of losing weight, I want to put on weight now. I used to think Chinaman Fashion clothing was cool, but now I prefer shirts with attention-seeking motifs on them. I want to be friends with more popular people now. But that's a different story. Now, this is about you.
Everytime we meet, I feel we're getting faker and faker with each other. I never feel I can have a heart to heart talk with you. When I'm feeling really depressed, I think twice about relying on talking to you to be comforted. When I have a really pressing problem, I think twice about coming to you for real advice. In fact, I'd say for such serious issues I need to talk about, I would actually go to my not-so-close friends over you. Why? Because they can give me sound advice and guidance I can count on. Something that assures me. Something that I can trust even though we're not best friends. You on the other hand, have a different style of talking.
How is it that you can never seem to tell when I'm being serious in the way I talk? Is it because I'm always not serious when I talk to you? Perhaps its because I've been too self-pitying for you to tell if I really have a problem I need advice on? If I'm in a fucked-up mood because I say, screwed maths? I will go 'Sigh.. I'm really screwed about my math..." I don't expect any more of you than "Yah lah yah lah math genius... like real you screw lorh... I worse than you..." Like, WTF?
How is if you always turn every conversation into something about you? I say I suck at math, and you try to say you suck more. That doesn't comfort me. Or are you just saying you want me to comfort you?
I used to trust you a lot. I used to come to you whenever I had an issue I needed help with. Now its different. I can never do that anymore because whatever I say, you dismiss it as a joke. Either that, or you simply can't be bothered.
You have changed so much. You're criticising everyone you see. If its not, "Wahlau lah China people!" its "That girl is a fugly bitch/butch!" or something of that line. You've become so much more judgemental. Which is something you criticised me for in the past.
I have so much more to say about you. Your style of speaking is so heavily influenced by your new friends. Your sense of fashion. Even your style of blogging. Why does it seem to... unreflective of the person I used to know? And before I end off, never, ever try to openly suan my dar. Nothing gets me more pissed when you do that. Go ahead and criticise but don't suan her. If you do that, it means you're trying to fuck with me and I will be fucking pissed.
Oh, and dearest PSL, whatever happened to all that 'Respect and Sensitivity' you taught us about? The way you behaved on that day, I'd say it was a whole lot of bullshit you bitched about during PSGM.
posted at 10:29 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I don't know what this is, but sinc she asked me to do then I anyhow do. -.-
1. the person who passed you this quiz
Ningxin
2. your relationship with him or lover?
uh.... my dar? <3
3. your 5 impressions of him(her)
gosh i dunnoe... cute? Um neurotic? What does neurotic mean? Uh... pro at scrabble? Funny.. uh... fun-loving? Does that count? Uh... I think she hangs around guys a lot XD
4. the most memorable thing he(she)'s done for you
Uh.. dunnoe also she does a lot... everything she does for me is memorable <3
5. the most memorable thing he(she) has said to you
cannot tell lah, later she scold me =X
6. if he(she) becomes your lover, you will
she's already my dar <3
7. if he(she) becomes your lover, things he(she) should improve on
she perfect :)
8. if he(she) becomes your enemy, you will
be weirded out o.O
9. if he(she) becomes your enemy, the reason will be
the relationship didn't work out
10. the most desired thing you want to do for him(her) now
um.. I dunnoe.. her wish is my command XD
11. your overall impression of him(her)
um.. I dunnoe also... um... fun person to be with?
12. how do you think people around you would feel about you
think I'm gay. And I will be pissed. Also think I'm vain. But that's ok because I am.
13. the characteristics you love about yourself
Nothing much actually... um...I can't think of anything... that I'm not fat? But then I'm scrawny so it doesn't really count... um... I'm dedicated?
14. on the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are
no double eyelids, very scrawny, no nice nose, fat cheeks, bad teeth, eyebags... I'm definitely going for plastic surgery. Also can't sing for shit even though I love music... um.. act seh ? I don't know.. there are a lot of stuff I don't really like about myself..
15. the most ideal person you want to be is
Frozenfly or [L]oveHina... and Sean Tan. Like his attitude.
16. for people who care and like you, say something to them
There are people who care and like me?
17. pass this quiz to 10 persons to see how they feel about you
I'd choose 10 people, but I won't bother passing this to them.
1 Zhi Hong
2 Kevan
3 Kun Yang
4 Jeremy
5 Kei Jun
6 Li Yang
7 Yan Kang
8 Kartik
9 Eric
10 Churen
18. who is no6 (that's Li Yang) having a relationship with at the moment?
He's single now.
19. is no9 (that's Eric) male or female
He's a male.
20. if no7 (that's Yan Kang) and no10 (that's Churen) are together, will that be a good thing
um... I don't know? Its quite impossible for them to get together actually.
21. how about no8 (that's Kartik) and no5 (that's Kei Jun)
No that's bad. It means they're gay.
22. what is no2 (that's kevan) studying
Huh? I don't know! Raffles programme?
23. when was the last time you had a chat with no3 (that's Kun Yang)
I used to chat with him quite often but I haven't talked to him in a long time. About 3 weeks and counting.
24. what kind of music does no8 (that's Kartik) like
Uh.. bollywood? I think he listens to those indian stuff a lot? Um I think he likes nonsense songs too?
25. does no1 (that's Zhi Hong) have any siblings
don't know him that well, but his brother is Eric -.-
26. will you woo no3 (that's Kun Yang)
No, I'm straight. And he has the hots for Annabelle.
27. how about no7 (that's Yan Kang)
No. Our relationship is very business-like.
28. is no4 (that's Jeremy) single
Yep. I think.
29. -
30. what is the hobby of no4 (that's Jeremy)
Playing with the cube? I don't really know.. haven't talked to him for a long time.
31. do no5 (that's Kei Jun) and no9 (that's Eric) know each other very well
I think they're unaware of each other's existence.
32. where is no2 (that's Kevan) studying at
RI lah duh.
33. say something casually about no1 (that's Zhi Hong)
Pro arch.
34. have you tried developing feelings for no8 (that's Kartik
Why would I?
35. where does no9 (that's Eric) live at
I don't know. But he works at the Bukit Batok hill top thing.. Is it a country club?
36. what colour does no4 (that's Jeremy)
Green? Come to think of it he could be []Green in Rakion!
37. are no5 (that's Kei Jun) and no1 (that's Zhi Hong) best friends
They don't even know each other.
38. does no7 (that's Yan Kang) like no2 (that's Kevan)
I think they're neutral friends.
39. how do you get to know (that's Kevan)
I believe its from Choir.
40. does no1 (that's Zhi Hong) have any pets
Come to think of it, I don't know a lot abuot him.
41. is no7 (that's Yan Kang) the sexiest girl in the world
Firstly, Yan Kang is not a girl. Secondly, even if he was a girl, he can't be sexy because 1 Emaciated 2 Too short 3 Too cute. To be sexy you must be lust-inducing not cute.
42. do you think its possible for no4 (that's Jeremy) and no5 (that's Kei Jun) to date each other
They know each other through band, but I don't think that's possible because they're both guys!
43. say something about no6 (that's Li Yang)
You can talk about serious issues with him...
44. what is your relationship with no9 (that's Eric)
Very complicated.
45. list all the schools that no1 to no10 are in and are originally from
1. (Zhi Hong) I am clueless. I think NOW he's in some bukit something school.
2. (Kevan) De La Salle (is that how you spell it?) andNanhua and RI
3. (Kun Yang) Same as Kevan except he's in SJI now.
4. (Jeremy) Not sure about it pre-GEP, but then its Nan Hua and RI
5. (Kei Jun) ACS, RI
6. (Li Yang) RI now, previously was not a GEPer.
7. (Yan Kang) Forgot first primary school, Nan Hua and RI
8. (Kartik) Not a GEPer, now in RI
9. (Eric) I don't know. He's in some poly now.
10. (Churen) Don't know pre-GEP, Nan Hua and now RGS
46. what would you do if no10 (that's Churen) hates you
Nothing much actually. I see that as something very possible.
47. which of the following are in a relationship
Zhi Hong and Eric. I think Churen but she's shutting up about it?
48. how did you first meet no3 (that's Kun Yang)
Nan Hua?
49. how would you react if no3 (that's Kun Yang) and no10 (that's Churen) were together
Freak out. Firstly, he's too much of a mugger now and thinkgs BGR is stupid, and as far as I know, she will never like him. He used to have the hots for her and I think he still does though.
50. what would happen if no4 (that's Jeremy) tells you she's pregnant
I'd wake up from a very bad dream.
Finally finished it.
posted at 11:17 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
So I was thinking, since I'm a Rakion addict now, I shall dedicate this entire post to Rakion.
The highest level I've ever reached in Rakion is...
30, with ARCHaeology, my archer. And she's steadily increasing :)
The fastest training rate I ever had in Rakion was...
10am - 12am Lvl1 - Lvl 22
My favourite character in Rakion is...
Ninja, actually. Its the hardest character to get bored of, because you can do a lot of tricks with her! Besides, like what the Ninja says, 'Speed can overcome anything that gets in my way.' Technically speaking if you put two pros in a room, one being a ninja, its very likely that the ninja will win if both their skills are of the same standard.
The reason why I like Rakion is...
I'll admit its stupid since its not free roaming, and it looks like you might get bored of it easily! But there's this adrenaline rush you get everytime you play, and I don't get that from killing mushrooms in Maplestory.
The naughtiest thing I've ever done in Rakion is...
Impersonated a girl. The guy I met got so freaked he blocked me on msn immediately :D Oh, and I've also used hacks before, just All2Nak and ChaosGodmode.
The nicest thing someone has ever said to me in Rakion is...
Not to me, but [Love]Hina told someone who called me a noob that I'm a pretty good arch~ I was really honoured because she's the 5th most powerful archer in Singapore! Not bragging, but it struck me that among a lot of pros who are really snobbish (think Hokkagez, Zeeve...) that was nice of her. Or him.
The things I hate most in Rakion are...
1 Fucking pinoys who come into Singapore rooms and lag the room like shit.
2 Spikers who play Rakion by tapping into their neighbours wireless.
3 Noob gangbangers who hunt in packs so they rape everyone they see.
4 Waiters.
5 Hackers, except those who help me in Stages :D
6 Hackers who hack accounts.
7 Snipers. (Yes, I'm one of them.)
The stupidest thing I ever did in Rakion was...
To give someone my acc and pass. And twice sommore! Somebody tell me I'm dumb. Yes my account did get hacked so get off my back already -.-. Actually once I gave it to my really close friend and he didn't hack my account. I was pleasantly surprised!
The amount of money I have spent on prepaid cards is...
More than a hundred. Please, I'm battling an addiction here :) Oh, this is meant to be a secret.
posted at 11:50 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
TOP TEN HOTTEST FEMALE CELEBS
10. Milla Jovovich
If you aren't some violent kid who loves blood and gore, she was the next best reason to watch Resident Evil. Besides, despite putting on the pounds during her pregenancy, she still looked really sweet. Its a wonder how she remains this beautiful despite the fact she's not getting younger. (she's already 33) How would you look when you're this old?
9. Jennifer Garner
At 36, she looks incredibly sexy. Not only is she incredibly toned, she also has an impeccable fashion sense. There's something about her smile that makes her look playful and cheeky, yet at the same time induce pre pubescent teenage boys to want to cat call. Don't we all wish she was our mum?
8. Jennifer Aniston
When you look at her dazzling smile and incredibly toned legs, you wonder why Brad even bothered with Angelina. At 39 years old, she's still your pretty girl-next-door with penetrating eyes. When she dresses up, she makes looking good look so easy that everyone seems to be able to look as good as her. Until you try. Uh huh.
7. Jennifer Love Hewitt
There's something to be said about the way she's more attention-seeking that even the plot in Ghost Whisperer itself. With all that running around in cleavage-bearing gowns to do ghost hunting, what do you expect? She's not in the list because she looks like any other pretty girl, there's something more than that... which I can't pinpoint exactly.
6. Avril Lavigne
The 6th most powerful Canadian once vowed never to wear skirts and dresses, but Avril has started -albeit not very recently- and looks fabulous. Love her music too. Her transformation to a blonde and pop was quite the change, but nevertheless, her music on The Best Damned Thing says it all. Can't say those seriously ah lian bangs go well with dresses though.
5. Liv Tyler
Not only does she looks incredibly beautiful despite being ghostly pale, her star-quality acting is definitely worth watching. Her recent split from Royston Langdon must have been good news... for other male suitors out there.
4. Lin Chiling
Yes, she's the only asian who made it into the list, and for good reasons. This Osim spokesperson has legs which are reportedly 42 inches long. There's something to be said about how she has this feminine-fragile quality about her face, yet makes men drool over her at the some time. So what if she has Mickey Mouse ears? Her excellent features more than compensate for that. Besides, aren't her ears almost always hidden by hair? Catch this leggy model in upcoming movie Red Cliff.
3. Taylor Swift
For once, Jeremy recommends a girl who is actually hot. She isn't a classic bimbo-esque beauty with big eyes and long hair and a nice glow, she actually has eyes that are quite small. But its her sexy asian eyes that contribute to her sultry demeanour. Somehow they eccentuate her already jaw-droppingly hot features. Besides, no one looks better in scary green eye shadow and crazily curly hair.
2. Eva Mendes
What do you get when you combine a bronze tan, luscious brown locks, a pentrating gaze, a killer pout, and voluptous figure? Eva Mendes. Slowly but surely, this siren is climbing the Hollywood ladder of fame. Also, her mole somehow enhances her sex appeal.
1.
These beauties may be.. uhm, beautiful, but you will always be the best in my eyes. <3
posted at 10:53 PM
You know, there's something to be said about the way everyone is competing to be a prefect.
I mean, its not even the least bit amusing! What's the big deal with this rat race?
Its like, everyone is desperate to be a freakin' prefect! During the nominations it was a competition of who could get the most nominations and now everyone is destitute with grief because they didn't make the cut. I mean, just what the fuck is their problem?
Why the heck would you want to be a prefect?!
Because you want to have more work? More responsibilities? Free stress? Just what is up with people and prefects?! The way I see it, being a prefect is nothing more than an unnecessary burden. I mean, what, you want to be a prefect so you get prestige? So you can get a good recommendation/portfolio/whatever? This is insane! Somebody shoot me.
So, moving on. I realised that Taylor Swift is incredibly chio! I didn't believe it when Jere told me she was hot but then I watched her video and I fell in love with her... looks. The music was a different thing. She's got these really sexy asian eyes for a ang moh. And no one pulls off light green eye shadow better than her. Also, she looks incredibly hot with both VERY curly and VERy straight hair! There's something to be said about how those eyes of hers aren't big but can still make her pretty..
Oh, I still think Eva is hotter though.
So then, I know I said that I won't post anymore but I just HAD to say something about this prefect thing.
Haha, anyway, no one ever reads my blog. I dindn't create it to be famous, I didn't want to get 2 million views a day. What I write here is meant to be.. um.. not public.
posted at 10:40 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
Review: My Piano Exam
No one can ever be prepared enough for an exam.
Outfit
I was wearing my Old School simpsons T-shirt my bro bought for me, my denim shorts, and Adidas sneakers. Green shirt + Red/Yellow/Orange/Brown - coloured motifs on it + Dark Blue shorts + White sneakers + Black ankle socks + Orange plastic-framed glasses= TOO COLOURFUL. I felt like a clown, but no choice. Had no time and just grabbed the first shirt I could find. Minus marks for the fact that my shirt was a little long and it looks better when I wear long pants.
Verdict: PASS
At least I didn't look like the girl sitting at the corridor wearing a tight T-shirt, super short white shorts and flip flops. She must be confusing her piano exam with an outing to the beach. Does she realise you're not supposed to dress informally for your piano exam?
Examiner
Has a head of white hear and intense blue eyes. Definitely not young and looks like kindly ol' uncle stanley. Should be around his fifties. Friendly enough to say an ethusiastic 'Hi!' and 'Thank you!' when I passed him the... marking sheet? No idea what its called. Smiles warmly when he looks at me and is kind enough to tell me that I can sing an octave lower for the sight-singing part. Also, expectedly, plays the piano like a pro.
Verdict: GOOD
Because I feel more comfortable with an examiner like him than one who doesn't smile so much she looks like she's constantly glaring at me and says 'Thank You' so seriously she sounds cold and distant. Yes, I'm referring to my previous exam's examiner.
Scales
So- so. No stumbling, but missed one or two notes (didn't press the keys). Could remember how to play every scale he asked for (I think he asked for 5, much more than the previous one where I was only asked to play 2). Nothing great, but nothing bad either. Semi- smooth. Everthing is so- so until Arpeggios. Asked to play 4, second attempts needed for 3. But thats only because my fingers slipped! I remembered how to play them ok! You tell me I mati or not.
Verdict: BORDERLINE PASS
Could have done fairly well but my Arpeggios killed me. Shit.
Pieces
First Piece: It was going fine until I thought 'Hey, I'm doing well I may finish this without a mistake!' Bad move. BLAM. Wrong note. Shit. 'Damn, gotta be more careful.' BLAM. Wrong note again! 'So much for that expectation.' BLAM. 'Ok, I've really got to stop thinking because its distracting me from playing. BLAM. Moral of the story: I think... DON'T think.
Second Piece: Because its a nice piece, it sounds quite nice when I'm not making mistakes. But the super-loud piano sort of restricts you from going any softer than ff. And because this song uses pedal, it was freakin' noisy. Made mistakes at the expected parts.
Third Piece: Reckon everyone took this piece, so there's going to be a lot of comparison. Not a lot of mistakes, just missed a note at the final chord.
Verdict: BORDERLINE PASS
Really, I shouldn't be thinking about it.
Sight Reading
He actually allowed me to play as practise. Is that allowed? Managed to go through 5 bars. An improvement of last year's 3. Looks fairly simple, played fairly simply (think no dynamics) Painfully average sounding.
Verdict: PASS
Ok lah, not so many wrong notes. Wrong beats though.
Aural
So-so singing since my singing (and sight reading) sucks, there isn't a single question that I'm dead sure of is the correct answer. At the last part he looked disappointed when I said I thought the piece was 20th Century because it had quite uneven beats. Still said an enthusiastic thank-you anyway. The clapping part went all wrong because even though there were many notes, clapping 200000 times doesn't give you the right answer.
Verdict: FAIL
I like to set realistic goals.
Overall: BORDERLINE PASS
I hope.
posted at 5:15 PM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
REVIEW: campFEAST
So, my [or our] campFEAST was recently concluded on 3rd July. campFEAST stands for camp Fun, Experiential, Adventurous, Social Cohesion and Teamwork. But just how good was this camp?
Activities: 5/10
Average you've-probably-done-it-before-at-p5-camp activities were the only things to look forward to. campFEAST night was nothing spectacular with painfully average performances from each platoon, including mine, if we had actually performed. Paintball was a big disappointment as we could only shoot non-living targets and not each other. Yep, The Flying Fox is as fun as it gets. Yawn.
Food: 9/10
Believe campFEAST's name, because the food was just about the most impressive thing. Large portions at least 3 times as much as our orientation camp in black and red plastic containers with different portions that remind me of chi-chi japanese crockery were very impressive. The food wasn't bad either. In each meal, most of the food served was meant for canivorous people like me. It was like, one serving of veg and three servings of meat or non-veg stuff per meal. The only reason why this doesn't score full marks is because the drinks were your usual water/tea/soya bean milk. Would have loved a camp that served coke.
I/Cs: 7/10
Friendly and humourous, with just the right amount of authority to always remind us who's boss. Does scold if we make mistakes, but already slack enough.
Sleeping: 7/10
Comfortable enough bunk beds made of styrofoam. Bonus points for the fact that we actually have a bed to sleep on. Not only does this provide comfort, we also don't need to pack sleeping bags. Minus points for the fact that there are mosquitos, its freaking hot, and the springs suspending the styrofoam creaks like hell when you toss and turn. I'd pinnalise for the fact that I had noisy bunk mates but since this can't be controlled, I guess I can't.
Toilets: 0/10
Super stink. Pungent odour of urine. Giant spiders infest them. Enough said.
Facilities: 5/10
Average facilities for us to use. Below average toilet. The high elements look awfully un-high, though The Flying Fox is pretty high. Lots of mud at the Low Elements section, and its too sandy at the Paintball station so our boots get very dusty. Water coolers everywhere are convenient. Minus points for the fact that the framed picture in the Motivational Hall were termite infested. You could really see many many termites (and grubs) crawling about inside the frame. Disgusting, and they haven't even realised despite the fact that they have eaten 5 pictures already.
Length: 4/10
With the kind of activities you do, 2D1N is almost too much. Nearly everything was a snore. Also, the waiting time for each activity is 2 hours and the time when its your turn lasts 30 seconds. Very contradictory to the fact that wherever we go, they shout 'Where's your sense of urgency?' Expect to sprint around the campsite only to wait for 2 hours before you get to participate.
Packing List: 3/10
The person who compiled it must have been drunk! Barely 80% of the stuff i brought was used. They ask for things like your PT kit.. T Shirts... etc but in the end, you do everything in No.4 Uniform. or Half-U. Also, they ask for a water bottle with mug but in the end you don't even need the mug function.
Other Cadets: 5/10
Think cadets from Yishun Town, Bishan Park, Anderson, Deyi, Peirce... I can't remember the rest. Bonus points for the fact that a lot of them are super-fit and their drills are in tip-top condition. Minus points for the fact that a lot of them are also vulgar, noisy, and unfriendly. And also unreasonable! I got screamed at for sitting in 'my seat leh!' when it was free seating. Thank goodness for my fellow school cadet for screaming back at him.
Overall: 5/10
Very average camp with nothing spectacular. Almost can't bear to come back again next year and do THE EXACT SAME THINGS. Oh, but bonus points for the fact that they don't confiscate your wallet and handphone. So i was sms-ing in bed. Don't believe its real name, because the camp isn't anywhere near fun, adventurous, social cohesion and teamwork. Ok, maybe a bit of teamwork. Have to agree about the experiential part though. It was such a bad experience. And i can prove that because i experienced pure bliss... when the camp was over.
posted at 5:41 PM